“When you decide to be happy, the creative process of Mind moves into instant action upon your decision…Do you actually believe you have a right to be happy?”

Raymond Charles Barker from The Power of Decision

I choose to be happy! I choose to be happy! I choose to be happy!

It is a choice! To be happy or unhappy! I know you are thinking…”yea, but what if a have a flat tire, a divorce, an illness, family death, no money.” We often justify our unhappiness and let ourselves off the hook for being upset, depressed or angry. And, majority of society would agree we do indeed have valid reasons for feeling these emotions.

But, do we really want to be upset, depressed or angry!?! And, then justify it by using outside circumstances as excuses to why we feel these emotions!?! I know I don’t. I want to be empowerd and I want to be able to live from the place where nothing in the outside world affects my inner peace and happiness!

And, honestly today hasn’t been a natural happy day for me. I just feel poopy and crabby! It is times like this that I need to keep affirming, “I choose to be happy. I am happy. I am so blessed. I am grateful My life is getting better and better.”. This is when my true spiritual growth and commitment is tested! I could say, “you know what screw it I am having a lousy day I have a headache I am just going to feel bad and then have a bad, crabby day end of story.”

That isn’t the end of the story. From the outside it might not look like the end of the world to have a bad day… But if we look deeper we can see that every moment of our lives is imprinted in our brain, in our consciousness. With every thought and emotion we are planting seeds. And, if we allow negative thoughts and emotions to consume us we are planting negative seeds. I do not want to grow any of those seeds, so why plant them? I want to grow only happy seeds!

It takes discipline, commitment, persistence and desire to do the work and to have a strong mind. But, I know that in the end the fruits that I am growing are going to be beautiful, amazing, powerful, and abundant! :)

Today I breathe, I relax and hold the intention of pure bliss, and joy!! I have a right to be happy!! And I choose happiness now! :)

I feel better already, how about you?

A glimpse into my Goddess life

Up at 5 am Meditation 5:30- 6:30

1hr of Kelly Howell Meditation -

Workout – 30 minute walk

Diet

6:30 Jasmine Tea and Papaya

8:30 Quinoa, honey, ghee

11:00 Dark chocolate

12:30 Grilled veggie, feta salad

2:30 Bowl of quinoa, ghee and braggs

3:30 herba matte tea

5:15 Liver Detox shot (tumeric) & Buckwheat Pancakes with ghee and mulberries

Mantra/intention for the day – Open – I am open

Mind/Body/Spirit – Woke up today with a headache and it is 3:40 pm and I still feel a bit off. It is amazing how feeling off in my mind and body influences my life and my experiences! If I am feeling amazing I am “on” and everything is bliss. If I feel off, I really have to work to experience that everything is amazing and wonderful!! I am committed to feeling good so I keep affirming that today! And I know this too will pass as everything does. Just where I am today!

Fun/Creativity – Wrote out all of my dreams! I have so many of them that there is a lifetime of study and learning to be done to accomplish them all! That is so exciting to me and I know that I will be able to do all of them!! Just trusting my process to do the next one that calls to me! :)

Magic, Miracles and Serendipitous Moments – Brian had a vision in his meditation to be back in the states at the New Year so that I can go to school in Jan. (which is a creative dream I have had for a awhile now). How magical to be living in Bali for 5 months!! Thrilled to be me! :)

Gratitude – I am grateful that I get up at 5 am and do an hour of meditation. I appreciate having a partner committed to growth! I am grateful for all of the people that go into preparing and delivering our yummy food. I am grateful for dark chocolate! :) (even though I might experiment not eating it for a day or two! ;) I am grateful for bathtubs I hart baths! :)

Thoughts on the day – I have been recording and getting back into my “training” regimen with training everyday and recording my diet. We eat out every single day. And as much as I love Kafe and Bali Buddha (two places we order in from) I am feeling like I want to start doing my own thing!! Eating out less and overall eating less. I basically can maintain the weight I am right now with eating whatever I choose whenever. It is awesome. But, if my ideal is to feel optimal, I am not sure my current way of eating is in alignment. I feel best when I don’t eat as much and I eat lighter foods!!! So, just because I am in a foreign country doesn’t mean I can’t eat my ideal diet! Just need to have a clear intention! :) And, another note I have about 14 weeks left here in Bali and about 25 weeks until March 28^th, which is the date for the fitness show I am thinking about doing! :)