“I believe sincerely that every man has consummate genius within him. Some appear to have it more than others only because they are aware of it more than others are, and the awareness or unawareness of it is what makes each one of them into masters or holds them down to mediocrity. I believe that mediocrity is self-inflicted and that genius is self-bestowed. Every successful man I ever have known, and I have known a great many, carries with him the key which unlocks that awareness and let’s in the universal power that has made him into a master…”That key is desire when it is released into the great eternal Energy of the universe.” Walter Russell

This quote comes from an amazing man Walter Russell I just read a book on him called The Man Who Tapped The Secrets of The Universe. It is a short read but packed with lots of goodness and wisdom. He is profound as you read in the quote above!

I agree with him that we all have genius within us. And, I know we all have had glimpses of it and maybe some are living out their genius everyday. This is something that I am desiring to do. And as Russell says desire is the key that unlocks the universal power!

We can’t just have a want, or a thought of that would be nice, it has to be a burning desire! A burning desire to know God, to unlock the mysteries of the Universe, to create that business, relationship, to be healthy. Whatever it is that we want we have to create the desire and KNOW and have infinite patience that the Universe will provide us the answers and the paths in which is the best way to fulfill our desires!

And how about mediocrity being self-inflicted? Wow! We are born for greatness! I can feel it in my bones that we are destined to be all that we dream to be. That we are all God’s children and here to give and receive all that we can!! That is the way Nature works. When a tree is growing it only knows but to be the best tree that it can be, it reaches for the sunlight and drinks of the goodness that the earth gives and it is beautiful!!

Like the tree, we all have within us this seed that desires to grow and expand to an even greater expression of itself!! The seed knows how to grow greatness and it does so without thinking about it. That same Intelligience is growing us, it is nudging us forward to be greater than we are right now, to grow, to expand, to live! And, often times we ignore the impulses or are too stimulated by the world to hear the desires of our soul.

This Intelligence is quiet, and we must be still in order to fully hear It flowing through us! It does not scream and shout at us, it is soft and gentle and available to us all of the time, we just need to be still and ask!

What is the genius inside of you telling you to do!?! Maybe write that book, or maybe love more and deeper, be more open, go to Italy!?! :) The genius inside knows. Trust, listen and confidently follow the path the Universe whispers to you. We all have the keys to our own greatness, we just need to use them and unlock the mysteries of our universe!

Take some time alone and listen deep within and see what you find and enjoy your genius! :)

Glimpse into my Goddess Life

Up at 5 am Meditate 5:30-6:30 am

Workout – 6:55 to 8:35 Goddess movement – more intense got the heart rate up!

Diet

7am hot Jasmine tea

8 am Papaya and Pineapple

9:45 Soymilk, raw cacao, blueberry, smoothie

1:00 nachos and big salad

2:00 dark chocolate piece

4:00 coconut water and lemon, honey, ginger, mint drink

5:00 quesadillas and stir fry with brown rice

Mantra/intention/Word for the day – I am a Genius!

Mind/Body/Spirit – Felt awesome today. Energy was high. Emotions were balanced and felt really connected to myself and to Brian! :) And, really feeling the desire to know and experience God more! I actually get excited to meet with my higher self in my morning meditation that is awesome!

Fun/Creativity – Watched the funny movie Starksy & Hutch

Magic, Miracles and Serendipitous Moments – I had a magical massage today and I had some amazing creative brainstorms today, life transforming actually!! :) Magical that we may be staying in Bali for longer than planned!!

Gratitude & Appreciation – I appreciate Charley and his beautiful house! I am grateful for my life, it is truly a charmed life. I appreciate Brian and all of his creativity and brilliance! I am blessed to be able to be able to have the day I had today on a regular basis!! I am grateful for my hands to be able to type this blog post. I am grateful for all of the teachers/people that inspire me to be a better woman. I am grateful for my healthy body!

Thoughts about the day – Life just keeps getting better and better!!! Excited to meet the sun tomorrow. Good night!!

“To be intuitive, we must cultivate our sense of humor and look for reasons to laugh everywhere. We become so self-absorbed and serious when it comes to our problems and melodramas that we disconnect from our deeper sense of who we are as beautiful souls – we withdraw from life instead of enjoying it. Laugher brings us back to ourselves and back to life.” Sonia Choquette

Beautiful! Love It! :) This quote is like music to my ears. I love to laugh. It is actually going to be one of my new hobbies, it just feels so damn good! It is in my DNA I love to sing, dance, be funny, laugh and play like a little child. And after reading Sonia’s book Trust your Vibes I realize how much I repress that part of me. It literally kills my spirit when I don’t give myself permission to be silly and goofy!! That is one of the times I feel most alive!

So, why don’t I do it more often!?! Because there is a story in my head that life is serious, and challenging, and you need to work hard and be disciplined and control your life and that goofing around does nothing to further along my evolution or the evolution of the planet. I don’t have time to play, sing, dance there is work to get done!!!!!

And I believe that story is from my intellectual side, my fifth sensory side (meaning only seeing the world with my 5 senses!) Which is very limited compared to the sixth sensory part of me, which is my playful, spiritual self. Who is light hearted, and fun, and in the flow of life, and manifesting miracles, and happy, and always enjoying life no matter what, and knows that life is easy and joyful and pure love. Wow! What a difference which one will I choose to live from!?! ;)

This sixth sense part of me is where my intuition lies. And intuition for me is God, my Higher Self speaking to me! Soooo, if I would like to tap into the secrets of the Universe, aka God, then wouldn’t it make sense to live from all of my six senses!?! :) Which would mean a lot more fun, a lot more laughing and enjoying myself (even my so called problems could be fun)! Whoa, what happens to my other story that life is hard and I need to be serious to be successful. Hmmmm I say we just throw it out in the garbage and say “see ya later, I gotta go get my fun on!” :)

I think that we addicted to being serious and boring. Creativity lies in our sixth sense in our ability to let go, and let God! When we are trying to control everything in our life and not having any fun, limiting our pleasure, our souls begin to wither away!! I have this deep urge to play and laugh and the heaviness of I need to grow up, and be responsible and that whole enjoyment thing is a waste of time. BS!!

Yes grow up and keep evolving into a beautiful human being full of love, and generosity but don’t lose that innocent childlike nature. It is your connection to God, to your creativity, to bliss!! And, my Higher Self gives me guidance when I am losing myself in something I truly enjoy! Sounds like a win/win to me!!

So how can we bring more fun and play into our lives!?!

I suggest to make a list of all the things that we enjoy to do and start doing them. We can make a list of all of our so-called problems and find a humorous way to look at them, just to get a different viewpoint. We can play with a child or a dog (notice how they can play for hours ;) What about dancing in the rain? Or having a dance party in your bedroom and dance on the bed and be the rock star you have always dreamed to be! Or maybe experiment in the kitchen and make something new. Climb a tree, go swing in a park, watch clouds float by and see all the different shapes they make. What about taking a painting class, or a dance class, or reading a book on humor! Or what about looking at yourself in the mirror and make faces at yourself till you laugh. Wear the craziest outfit you can imagine! As you can see there are millions of ideas of how you can create fun and laughter in your life!

Now, let’s go out and create some fun today!! As Nietzsche said. “I would believe only in a God who could dance.” So how about we go meet God and get our dance on, shake that booty and play like we have never played before!! :)

A glimpse into my Goddess life

Up at 5 am Meditation 5:30-6:30 am

Workout – 7:45-8:30 am – Yoga

Diet – Yerba Matte tea and beet parsley, cucumber, celery juice

8:45 Papaya and pineapple and mango

10:45 Buckwheat pancakes, ghee and berry compote (heaven:))

12:00 Coconut water and meat

3:30 green juice, small portion of red rice and 10 walnuts

4:30 corn quesadillas and guacamole

5:00 Tofu Stir fry and brown rice

6:00 dark chocolate (I love this stuff – never have been a chocolate fan until recently! :) )

Word for the day – Play

Mind/Body/Spirit - I did a lighter workout today. Just wanted to be calmer today and relax! And I actually played a game with myself and asked my Higher Self to guide me in the workout and I just did what ever popped in my head, it is a great way to surrender and let Spirit guide me! :) But I feel great and I am loving my body more and more everyday and it is so much fun to play, amazing how many things this one body can and does do in a day!! I had an awesome meditation this morning and I actually look forward to my 1 hr sitting in the morning who would have thought!?! ;) And, I am really understanding this whole life thing! Only taken me a couple of years. But I am seeing how important relaxation, fun and play are to have in my daily life. It literally connects me to God, I feel this and I know that this is where my transformation lies. So great to know and so blessed to be creating the practices to allow God to flow through me! WOW!

Fun/Creativity – I took a bath and listened to India Arie on my ipod and rocked out. Felt so good. I love music and I want to listen to it more often!! Feels good in my soul! She is one soulful sista! Dig it! And, we had a day of silence today. I know doesn’t sound like a lot of fun, but it is. It is amazing what you miss out in the world when you are always talking or listening to someone else talk or thinking about what you are going to say next. It is a great way to tap into your other senses! :)

Magic/Miracles and Serendipitous moments – I had the thought of how I would really like a drink of water today and then Brian poured a glass within seconds and offered me some! :) A day of silence is magical!!

Gratitude - I am grateful for music, I am grateful for love, grateful for silence. I am grateful for all of the books we have. I am grateful for my journal and I am grateful for my Higher Self, who I am becoming more and more intimate with!

Final thoughts for today – Living in Bliss.. This I am doing. I am so happy to be living the life that I am living!!

‘Nothing great was ever achieved without enthusiasm” Ralph Waldo Emerson

Enthusiasm is one of my favorite words and is so important to live life to it’s fullest and experience all the juiciness! :) I am a very passionate person and I can get excited about a lot of things! It is one of my greatest gifts!! And, sometimes I can diminish and be inhibited and not fully express all of my enthusiasm. Which leaves me feeling low, uninspired, and just blah, not fun. Enthusiastic energy needs to flow!

I am creating the habit of always being enthusiastic and inspired and full of life. Why would we ever want to feel low energy!?! Life is supposed to be fun, playful, adventurous and inspiring. I have so many personal goals and dreams that there literally isn’t any time to be sad, upset, frustrated, or fatigued! There is a need for pure enthusiasm to radiate through out my life and all of my projects!!

Why not full express!?!

We could go about our daily activities with the negative noise in our heads about.. “this is boring, I don’t like to do this, ooh that again, ugh I hate doing that, or I hope that my project works, my life sucks, this is stupid..” And, then live with the lack of energy these thoughts create.

Or…. You could go throughout your day and have the thoughts and the energy of…” I am so blessed and so grateful and I know that all of my projects are amazing and satisfying. I am so blessed to be able to do this and to do that (even if it is the laundry :)) I am so excited and so full of life to do everything in my daily schedule today, even the pile of bills that need to be paid are going to be a fun filled adventure. I look forward to seeing how I can live the best day ever today”

WOW what a difference can you feel the energy?

Our thoughts have power which then create our experiences! Why not live and explore the world like a child does!?! Be curious, be open, be free and laugh a lot!! Be over the top with your enthusiasm! Some people may think that you are being too much or too excited! :) That is their problem. Smile and live with passion!

The best part is you can always increase your desire and enthusiasm! No limits to how much enthusiasm you can have in your life. How much are youonly on how much you are ready for? :)

Play a game with yourself today… Feel yourself talk, walk, move, do the dishes, anything and say, ”How can I create more enthusiasm and energy for what I am doing right now?” And, then let the ideas come to you and act on them!! And feel it building. And check in with yourself to see where you are throughout the day and rate yourself! A one being “I am so tired and fatigued I just want to crawl into bed and lay there forever” and a ten being “OOH MY GOD I am soooo excited and I can feel the energy pulsing through my body…ecstasy… keep bringing the goodness…” :)

Remember enthusiasm is the key if you want to be happy and great!!! Turn it up and Say “Bring it on Baby.”

Enjoy your enthusiastic day! :)

Glimpe into My Goddess Life

Up at 5:00 am Holosync Meditation 5:30 – 6:30 am

Diet Hot yerba matte tea and green juice

8:30 Coconut water and Papay and Pineapple

10:15 Black Rice Pudding with coconut milk

11:30 Grilled veggies and scrambled eggs

3:00 ¼ of a raw food bar and 5 pieces of papaya and coconut water

4:00 piece of dark chocolate and miso soup

5:15 stir fry veggies and brown rice

Workout – 1 hr of Goddess Movement

Word/Mantra for the day – Enthusiasm!!!!

Body/Mind/Spirit

I feel amazing today! Really really great! Happy and fulfilled and enthusiastic and passionate about my day today and the days that I am creating by the seeds of goodness I am planting today!! So, awesome to choose to be happy. No reason to choose to be confused, frustrated.. It is all in my imagination I can create any experience at any time! WOW powerful. It is all in what I give meaning! I can have something so called negative and turn it into a positive. There is always ways to grow and expand!! I am having so much fun playing around with listening to my vibes and trusting them. My intuition is so strong sometimes I just dismiss or ignore it. I am bringing her back full force! :)

Magic, Miracles, and Serendipitous Moments – In my meditation I had the idea of writing my daily yummy about enthusiasm and where to find the quote! It is perfect and just what I needed today! :) And, I had the thought as I was eating some chocolate that Brian might want it for a headache later. Thought it was random and didn’t think again and enjoyed the yummy dark chocolate..An hour later he says, “ I have a headache do we have some of that dark chocolate?” Doh! It was serendipity but would have been better if I would have listened to my gut! :)

Gratitude – I am so grateful for my mind and for the infinite universe we live in!! Talk about living in Bliss – we get the opportunity to live in it everyday. I am so blessed to be alive and happy and healthy and creative. I am so thankful for the book that I am reading right now and for all of Sonia’s wisdom and experience!! I am grateful for my breath!!! I am grateful for Tini our massage therapist who gives us wonderful massages! Today we saw a cremation of 15 people from a village in Ubub. Fascinating and beautiful celebration of life! (pictures) I grateful for my life and the process of evolving.

Final thoughts for today – It was so great to have the mantra enthusiasm! As I felt myself sometimes not feeling so enthusiastic so it was great to bring myself back to my intention for the day!! I also decided that this is like training camp the rest of this month and October! I am just getting back into recording my diet, becoming aware of what I am eating and working out at least 30 minutes everyday with the ideal being 60 minutes!! It is perfect as I will have an awesome progression the next 6 months!! It is so great to have so much time to prepare, train and transform! I feel a nervous excitement about the whole process!! Off to take an amazing Epsom salt, lavender, ylang lang bath! :) Peace!

“Your past is an illusion. It is the trail you left behind you, and a trail behind you cannot drive you today, regardless of what you choose to believe. All you have is now, and you have never tried anything. You have simply not done it yet!” Wayne W. Dyer

How great is that!?! Have you ever tried anything and failed? And, didn’t try again because you thought you would fail? This is your illusionary past getting in the way of your future. In my opinion I think it would be best to take “try” out of our vocabulary. It is not empowering and we either do or we don’t.

When someone says, “I will try to do that” or “try to get that done.” They don’t expect to get it done. But they want to at least say that they really tried to do it but what they really are saying is, “I put effort into it, so please don’t criticize me, I tried..”

But why would we want to just put the effort in and not reap the benefits of actually getting it done. Either do it or don’t! I think that the main reason we only “try” to do things is we are actually scared to put ourselves out there and do it fully. And, we have so many stories of being too tired, busy, overwhelmed to really go for it with all of heart!! It is lack of belief and trust that we can actually do it! If we believed we could do it we would and there would be no time for “trying” or making up stories about how we are as so busy, blah blah blah…

The great thing is there are many things we all have “tried” to do, and failed, or it didn’t turn out like we thought it would, and are fearful that it will be the same in the future if we were to try it again!! Remember… you have never tried anything. You have simply not done it yet. How liberating!!!! No need for negative stories, thought, explanations, just KNOW that you can do it and go out and do it!! It is the constant reminders that we are not our past, that anything is possible, and that we can accomplish whatever we set our minds to. This is the path to greatness and getting things done!

So, what are you going to stop “trying to do” and DO!?! :)

Up at 5:00 meditation at5:30 am Holosync Meditation

Diet – Jasmine Tea

8:15 bowl of pineapple and papaya

9;45 Bowl of Millet

1:00 pm hot lemon, ginger, honey tea and coconut water

Ate at Kafe (Think I am addicted :))

Some nachos. Grilled veggies and scrambled eggs

4:30 Papaya and Pineapple

6:00 Pumpkin Soup and a Salad with tempe and tofu

Workout 60 minutes of Yoga (with the intention to purify and energize)

Body/Mind/Spirit – I woke up feeling amazing today and there is something incredible about meeting the glorious sun in the morning! I LOVE it!! It has been a practice I have been wanting to do for years now and it seems natural now that we are here in Bali away from stimulation, our computers late at night, and phones, street lights, etc etc.. I am excited to continue with the practices I have cultivated here and bring it back into my daily life in LA!

I feel calm and centered and I am breathing more deeply than I think I ever have (well at least consciously) And, it is amazing how fast I can relax when I just breath! It is such a happier place to be as well!! I am really becoming more and more aware of energy. Of my energy, of other people’s energy, and the energy of environments. It is fascinating to feel into it and become aware of how I feel with who, and where, and what I am doing. Really want to tap into that consistently and listen to my higher self and trust myself and my intuition. All about being aware and conscious. Takes practice and work but it is so worth it!

Magic, Miracles, and Serendipitous Moments – That I am here in Bali (pinch me life is so good). Everyday is magical and miraculous and serendipitous. I am reading “Trust Your Vibes” right now and it is perfect. I always pick the perfect book for me to read at the perfect time!!

Gratitude – I am grateful for whoever invented the internet. Wow what an incredible invention! :) I am grateful for Kafe in Ubud, Bali, I love love their food. Probably one of the best restaurants ever!! Which I have a tendency to be really picky so that is awesome and exciting to have found such an awesome place to eat almost every meal t here in Ubud! :) I am blessed to have the money to be able to buy all of the books that I have read on this trip and for all the people that made it possible for me to have those books in my hands. Truly remarkable when I think about it!! I am blessed to have Ibu who is our chef/housecleaner, she is such a sweetheart and blesses the house daily to keep the evil spirits away. Talk about gratitude. Thank you Ibu! :)

Final thoughts for today – I looked at fitness shows today and looking at one for March! :) It is time to turn it up and get this party started! :) Good Night! Sweet dreams1

“For the next month, say over and over to yourself, “I approve of myself.” Do this three or four hundred times a day, at least. No, it’s not too many times. When you are worrying, you go over your problem at least that many times. Let “I approve of myself” become a walking mantra, something you just say over and over and over to yourself almost nonstop!” Louise L. Hay

It is quite stunning how many negative thoughts that run around in our mind a day! Almost never are we saying “I approve of myself.” What would it look like if we all really did approve of ourselves and actually liked ourselves!?! What if throughout the day we were our own cheerleader! Only giving our beautiful mind praise, love and approval!! WOW :) I know when I flood my consciousness with positive mantras I show up in the world as a different human being!

Let’s do it together and really let it sink in… “I approve of myself! I approve of myself. I approve of myself. I approve of myself. I approve of myself. I approve of myself. I approve of myself!” Aaaaahhh doesn’t that feel good? Now, go out and have the best day ever!

A glimpse into my Goddess Life

Up at 5:00 am Holosync Meditation

10:00 am Kelly Howell Mind/Body/Spirit Meditation

Diet

6:45 am Big cup of hot jasmine tea

8:10 Bowl of papaya and pineapple and coconut water and meat

9:45 Beet, Cucumber, Parsley, Celery juice

10:30 Bowl of millet a tsp of honey and a bit of soymilk

12:30 Brown Rice

3:30 Pineapple

4:30 Grilled Feta Salad and some nachos & coconut water

6:30 Bowl of Millet, soymilk, tsp of honey

Workout – 60 minutes of yoga

Body/Mind/Spirit – Going to love my body today. Well everyday my intention is to love my body. But I really feel that for me during the time of my menstrual cycle I need extra lovin! :) Nurturing, relaxation, enjoyment and comforting healthy foods and even a nap if I am feeling it!! I took a bath this morning was awesome for like 30 minutes while I did the mind/body/spirit meditation!

And as far as my diet goes.. I love food! :) Even basic foods I love love love. Do I really need all that food to sustain for the day!?! Probably not!! I find it is easier when I am doing the preparing and cooking I don’t eat as much as I do when I eat out all the time (which is pretty much what have been doing here in Bali)

I feel so inspired today and have being doing regular visualization sessions. I used to do it before a game, or some sort of sporting event but I haven’t done it that much since. So, I am consciously doing it as I create my life. The power of imagination is amazing.

Magic, Miracles, and Serendipitous Moments – To be honest I am drawing a blank mind on this one. I know that life is a miracle! But no moments are jumping out at me! Better keep a better eye out for the goodness! :)

Gratitude – I am grateful for my beautiful body, my brilliant mind and awakened spirit! I am grateful for Nature! I am grateful the nourishing food that I ate today. I am grateful for going number 2. Hell yea this is something to be grateful for – a clean colon is a happy body! :) I am so so blessed to live the days that I do! Truly remarkable and I thank my incredible partner for making it happen!! My life is richer with him by my side! There is just something amazing about going to bed and touching feet… I LOVE IT! :)

Final thoughts for today – I am actually not living in Bliss in this current moment! I feel good but not great and tired and just a little grouchy!! I have had probably pretty close to an ideal day and I don’t want to blame it on anything but I do think it is just part of the natural cycle of life, aka my menstrual cycle. The good news is that I know it is not permanent and I can go to bed early tonight, visualize waking up feeling energized and rejuvenated and jump back into the river of bliss!!