The daily quote today comes from The Silva Mind Control Method of Mental Dynamics

“I forgive myself for all my past actions. From this moment forward, I will be the best me that I know how to be….live your life the best way you know how. Be the best you that you can be.”

Forgiveness seems to be a challenge for many of us. It is truly healing when we can say and mean it from the depths of your heart. I forgive you. I forgive myself! And, this may take one time or it may take 1000 times. But it is very important to do, otherwise we continue a pattern of guilt and punishment upon ourselves and others!

Is there something that you wish you would or would not have done and haven’t forgiven yourself!?! Do it now! Relax and take a few deep breaths and allow yourself to truly forgive! And know that you did the best that you could do with the knowledge you had at that point of time! And, make a commitment that every moment you will bring forth the best you possible!

I know there are many things I wish I would have done, some that I regret doing. These past experiences leak my energy and personal power. I don’t feel energized about my day’s and my future when I don’t acknowledge the presence of the guilt from the past. But the freedom I give myself when I can say…I forgive myself.. and then get on with it and create whatever I want in my life! The energy is released and creativity explodes and I feel alive and happy!

A personal example from my life; when I was a freshman in college I saw Muscle Media magazine and admired Shawn Phillips and all of the beautiful people in that magazine and had a flash that is for me!! And I trained hard and sculpted my body, then moved from Iowa to LA for a summer and had this grand vision of being a fitness model and just being able to transform my body and being so alive and radiant and inspiring and helping others do the same. It was truly a big dream for me!

I did do some modeling and got a modeling portfolio and I was in Muscle & Fitness magazine but I didn’t give myself fully. I half heartily competed in fitness shows with this dream still in me but never winning and never being audacious enough to say you know what that is what I want and I am going to do what I need to do to make it a reality! After awhile I had convinced myself that I didn’t want to do fitness shows anymore and that it was a vain goal to want to become a fitness model and that even helping and inspiring others to physically transform was stupid. I should grow up and do something else, get a real job! :)

I thought that I had let it go. Then recently I realized I was still resenting myself and angry that I never fulfilled that dream! And, there was a part of me that was like you are too old now for that, give it up, forgive yourself and let it go and move onto something more evolved, more spiritual (whatever the hell that means) And, then there was this other part of me that was like that is BS you are just scared that you won’t be able to do it and will look like a fool and waste time on a dream that may never fully be manifested. FEAR is the only reason that you didn’t do it and haven’t done it!! And, if you really wanted to be brave and inspiring to yourself and others you would start it now and get on with making this dream a reality and coach others to manifest their dreams!

So, here I am competing for a fitness show and totally committed to transformation and dreams being realized! And it is all perfect because I now come from a different consciousness than when I was 20 and I can truly honor and appreciate the journey and my own evolution in the process and totally get My Goddess on! :) I forgive myself and I commit to giving the world the best me possible!

What about you? Do you need to forgive yourself for something!?! Is there a dream you left behind and want to revisit and recommit to!?! I am sending you all green lights (as Wayne Dyer says ;) GO FOR IT!!!! (and please let me know what happens- this stuff lights me up :) )

Glimpse into my Goddess Day

Up at 5:00 am Holosync Meditation

Diet

8:15Jasmine tea and bowl of fruit

9:30 Coconut water and aloe vera juice

10:15 Nachos

1:00 Grilled Veggies and Feta Salad & small piece of dark chocolate

3:15 Bowl of Fruit and glass of young coconut water and glass of lemon/stevia water

3:45 Belly Juice – tumeric, apple, aloe

5:45 Grilled veggies and scrambled eggs with tempe and tofu and ginger/carrot soup

Workout – 45 minute all over body workout with yoga sun salutations

Body/Mind/Heart – What a beautiful thing, I got my period today! There is something quite amazing that my body goes through a 28 day cycle the same as the moon cycle. Talk about divine intelligence working through each one of us and being connected to the universe!! I feel like I have a bit less energy today and a wee bit sore from working out harder the last couple of days more than I have been in awhile! But it is a good feeling!

I feel very centered and calm in my mind and yet very enthusiastic about my life and what I am creating and preparing. There is vitality in living your life everyday with the intention of bringing forth the best you possible! :) And Deep love and appreciation for my path and for all of my growth and transformation that has already taken place in I see so much goodness in my near future of seeds I have planted and are ready to bloom!

Magic, Miracles, and Serendipitous Moments – It is quite magical that I am typing from Bali right now on this beautiful Tuesday morning at 3:45 pm in an incredible office with views of the rice fields! I have wanted to come to Bali for awhile, magic has brought me here!! And, tonight before I left for the Philosophers Forum (philosophersnotes.com/mygoddesslife) I put on my love bead bracelet and thought to add some more Love into my life! And, when I arrived Lauren, one of the participants had painted me a picture with the word LOVE! Serendipity! How cool is that!?! :)

Gratitude – I am so grateful for money and the freedom and joy that it brings to the world. It is truly amazing. I am grateful for the delivery man from Kafe who brought us the best food today!! And, again, grateful that we have the resources to buy the food and give him a tip and be able to help serve him and his whole family! I am grateful for the person who made the juice that I am drinking right now! I am grateful for Kelly Howell who’s meditation I am listening to right now as I type! I am grateful for my breath! Thank you! Thank you! Thank you!

Final thoughts for today – I Love my life!

“Surrender and trust in the wisdom that created you….this trust is your corner of freedom, and it will always be yours.” Wayne Dyer

I heart Wayne Dyer. If I had a spiritual grandfather he would be one of them!!! He is amazing and I love all of his books and the man has 7 children! WOW! 

Surrender and Trust… How often do we do either one of these!?!
Relax, take a few deep breaths and say to yourself, “Surrender”… and allow yourself to be absorbed into this delicious space and then ask yourself where you are not trusting your higher self or in the Wisdom that created you!?! And, then make a vow to be or do whatever comes to you!

Something beautiful happens in my life when I surrender and trust. When I trust that I know what I need to do next, that I know what my path is, and that I am capable of creating my ideal. And, then I just surrender to my higher self and allow Her to guide me and watch the magic unfold. It always does, and even more beautifully than I would have scripted it!!

We all have different dreams, visions and paths. And I know I can often to look to other people who seem to have it figured out and are so clear on their path and they KNOW and I think that maybe their path is where I should go… And, sometimes I think I need to copy their path because they know better than I do.

Which looks like this in my mind: "Oh, they went to a monastery, I need to go to a monastery, maybe, India, in the woods with a shaman, traveling around the world, studying this and having to read all the books they read, and wait they don’t have any kids, or they have kids… they live in a cabin, they have no money, they are a millionaire, they went to that school, I need to go there… " and the list goes on and on! :)  It is quite funny when I can watch my mind entertain all of these paths! Literally can make one go crazy!

My guess is you experience something similar from time to time. ;) When we trust ourselves and surrender to what we know our path is right now life is pretty much fabulous! What does that inner voice tell you to do next? Listen and then follow it with all of your heart. And, then keep listening, I know that the path will appear every step we take when we truly connect and live from “our corner of freedom”! :)

A glimpse into My Goddess Day

Up at 5 am

Meditation 5-6 am

Kellly Howell Winning Mediation 30 minutes

Diet

7:00 am Yerba matte and fresh mint tea

8:00 Bowl of Millet, walnut milk and tsp. of honey

10:45 Guacamole and natural corn chips

12:15 Stir Fry – red rice, veggies and tofu (1 small piece of dark chocolate)

4:15 Bowl of pineapple, papaya, mango, big handful of corn chips

6:30 Bowl of pineapple, papaya, mango, 1 small piece of dark chocolate)

Workout 45 minute circuit training

Body – I feel a bit tired today. I believe I am getting close to my monthly cycle. I am so thrilled that I am getting up and training in the morning, it feels so amazing. My body was made to be active!!

Mind – I am feeling awesome. I am so clear about my vision for my life and it feels wonderful!! I am still registering that I am training for a fitness show and that I have committed to being my most radiant self. :) My mindset is changing and I can see so much potential and growth for the next 3-6 months of being diligent and consistence and persistent!! What is possible in our bodies, I am destined to find out!!

Heart – I feel so connected to Spirit, Life! I am excited to go home. Home being LA! I have loved being in Bali and it has been truly transformative for me, have read like 14 books and will probably read another 10 and have done yoga almost everyday, been in silence, disconnected from the internet and stimulation for the “outside” world! Amazing and I feel a sense of dharma and being in LA! Amazing things await me in LA this I know!

Magic, Miracles and Serendipity – That it isn’t a big deal for me to get up and mediate for an hour at 5 am. I have been wanting to do this for years and never did it. But we are so in tune with the natural rhythms here it is truly magical and miraculous!

Gratitude – I am grateful for the intelligence of my body and that this Intelligence does everything for me, breaths me, pumps my heart, cleanses every cell… There is an infinite amount of blessings just looking at all my body does for me! I am grateful for this computer to be typing on. I am grateful for my family, especially my parents for having me. :) I am grateful for my dreams!

Final thoughts for the day – I feel like I ate to much food today and not the best quality! I feel amazing and I just feel blessed to be on the journey of self-discovery and transformation!

“Twenty years from now you will be more disappointed by the things you didn't do than by the ones you did do. So throw off the bowlines. Sail away from the safe harbor. Catch the trade winds in your sails. Explore. Dream. Discover.” Mark Twain

Do you have unfulfilled dreams!?! I do! And I have lots of really good reasons and excuses for not fulfilling them! I have tried to let them go and create new dreams often more “spiritual” (whatever that even means ;) or more normal, trying to fit into the adult world of being realistic and responsible!

I don’t want to be normal and I don’t want to be realistic. I want to Explore. Dream. Discover. I want to live my days dreaming and living the impossible. Even if I never do accomplish what may seem impossible at least I will have lived my life full out!! There will never be any question of “What if?” or, “I really wish I would have done that.” I will have pushed my limits, expanded and grown into something beautiful and fully alive!!

This woman has way to many dreams to let regret disappoint her today’s!! :) Reminds me of a Joseph Campbell quote… “People say that what we are seeking is a meaning of life. I don't think this is what we're really seeking. I think what we're seeking is an experience of being alive.”

Where will you be in 20 years!?! Do you fully experience being alive in the life you have created!?! Start today on a dream that you have forgot about, are procrastinating, or just think you can’t do!! Get your journal out and write out all of the things you wish to do and pick one thing and start rockin it today!!

A glimpse into my Goddess Day

Out of bed at 4:45 am

1 hr of holosync meditation 5 am to 6 am

30 minute Goddess Meditation

Diet

7:00 Belly juice

8:30 Papaya and mango

9:30 1/2c of millet and honey

12:00 Grilled Veggies and Feta Salad

2:15 Smoothie – banana, cacao, soymilk

5:00 – Brown Rice and Veggies

6:30 Hot water and walnut milk and cocoa and stevia (my favorite healthy hot cocoa recipe)

Bed by 8:30

Workout

7:15 am -8:15 am1 hour – full body training and yoga

Mind/Body/Spirit

My Mind feels centered and grounded and of course excited as this is Day 1. It is the feeling of transformation, and dreams being manifested, even if it is just day 1 you have to start somewhere right!?!

My Body feels awesome. I have a rash on my body that according to Ayurveda it is “pitta” coming out. And that the climate change of LA to Bali can cause such a thing!?! It has been pretty intense the last week and it is healing up perfectly!

My Spirit which for me is my heart… :) Feels happy and knows that I am on the right path!

Magic, Miracles, Serendipity – Miracle that I got up at 4:45! :) And had a magical time today with Brian!! Serendipity… hmm nothing that comes to mind for today!

Gratitude… I love this part.. I am so grateful for my body and for my mind and for my dreams. I am grateful for the amazing food that I am blessed to eat every day!! I am blessed! I am grateful for Brian who is an incredible man and blessed to be able to share my life with him! I am grateful to Charley for letting his stay in his beautiful Bali house for the next month!

Final thoughts for the day

There is really something to living with passion and enthusiasm and following your dreams!! Reminder to myself to always always follow my dreams and know that it is my destiny to fulfill them! :)

Good Night